It’s fun to ride on a Tuesday train. Less crowded, people are more tamed. I get to this sense that I just never have to get off. I do stare at people while on a train. It’s not being rude or any thing but when I see their faces, I see different stories. Life stories that most of the time, won’t let them hide the joy radiating from their faces. But, others tend to ward off any stare that might lurk into them. Waiting for something to end, as if suffering. But the looks of confusion adds more burden to a striking question on their face “when will this end?”. Having to work in a big media company and with the nature of my work, I’m somewhat a ‘Houdini’ in detecting and reading people’s expressions.
A man in front of me was holding up a tabloid with a fairly bold headline that read ‘Fare Increase Approved’. His eyebrows met and combined while reading and by the looks of it, he wasn’t taking the news to a light.
A mother was combing the hair of her daughter, day-dreaming about how bright her daughter’s future will be, but leaving a hint of precariousness.
A sales boy texting someone on his phone, with subsequent deep sigh as he continue texting. Someone’s in trouble I say? or A sigh of desperation to when would something unfavorable to him end?
I have my own share of these looks, thoughts and experiences. I even fought to insanity before, as to why would something you have cared so much and trusted your whole life, end so fast and unexpectedly, and the only answer I have was — “It was bound to happen”. As I’ved search for some hints of clues (and not answers) just to put back my sanity together, I have come to know that, people set their own boundary, their limitations, their goals. They overdo and over-think things that it reaches the mainstream meaning of ‘impossible’ and then FEAR sets in.
Fear of something that hasn’t even come yet! People create an aversion of illusions.
People confine themselves in small coaches like the ones on the trains. Tend to go around, waiting for the next stop-station. Limited to only the number of stations the route have.
“Arriving at Boni Avenue Station..” a pleasing feminine voice announces my stop. It’s a stop of confinement. An end of trammeling myself to doing what I really want to do and what should i do. I got off and I moved on.