Parallel Universe

This version of Vybe and Bhyre happen to live in the parallel reality where Bhyre picked up smoking at the age of 16 (which only occurs in .00001% of the parallel universes Bhyre exists in), so that when Vybe spotted Bhyre from across the alley, he thought to himself “I don’t like smoking” and then quickly looked away… never to think of Bhyre again. Neither of them ever knowing how close they came to lives of pure misery.

UNFORTUNATELY,  As Vybe looks across the crowded mall at Bhyre, he has no idea that in 99.99999% of the parallel universes that him and Bhyre both exist in, they actually meet at this Mall and embark on a horribly destructive and lengthy love affair that ruins both of their lives and leaves them bitter, hollow shells of their former selves…

While each of their paths in time led them here, in this reality they do continue together… creating a legacy of pain and sorrow for generations.

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What one wants

I was cleaning my closet this morning, figuring out what and not to keep. Stacking piles of unused clothing, years of receipts, bus tickets, and stuffs I don’t know where and why it ended up inside.

One thing that I took notice was a box. Just a small one, inside were letters, pictures and other stuffs from a past relationship. What I discovered amazes me, I even forgot it was there. It was a piece of paper, with words, I wrote – “If you can read this without pain, without anger and with acceptance. You’re now fine.”

Realizing that I wrote and made an effort to compose those, one can really imagine how deeply hurt I was, reminding and consoling myself that soon, it’s gonna be alright. That letter was dated September 24, 2010.

Setting aside those things, I tried to focus on what I really need to do in the first place. Clean up my closet. Weighing every option if I was to keep this and that, or off to the relief center.

It wasn’t that hard, since I’ve finished it more than the time I allotted for my saturday morning. I got back to that box, looking at it as if waiting for something to happen. I read the texts on the paper again and again. I placed it back.

I need to fix a part of me. A part of me that was far too long broken. But I don’t know how. I know what I need – proper closure. But, my head keeps telling me it’s not possible anymore.

What one wants really, was just to be at peace with oneself. One have forgiven everything the other one did. One just want to see those smiles again on the pictures, before everything will be locked up inside that box.

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Onwards to Stanford

I still can’t believe I’m really gonna take this path.

It was just a year since I passed an academic scholarship for a Masters Degree in Stanford University in CA, USA. As what is relevant to my bachelor’s course, I’m gonna take up M.F.A. Documentary Film. The course is under the Department of Art & Art History as part of Stanford’s program in Film and Media Studies, the Master program provides a historical, theoretical, and critical framework within which students master the conceptual and practical skills for producing nonfiction film and video.

This masters program will cost me 3 years of hard work and discipline. I knew from the moment I took the exam, It’s gonna be a heck of a pressure.  I love the course outline they have given me. This opportunity is something I would never get to miss in my life. I have so much to give back to myself after all I’ve been through.

See you Stanford University in a few months time. And, to you too Europe by October!

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Boundedness of Things

train stationIt’s fun to ride on a Tuesday train. Less crowded, people are more tamed. I get to this sense that I just never have to get off. I do stare at people while on a train. It’s not being rude or any thing but when I see their faces, I see different stories. Life stories that most of the time, won’t let them hide the joy radiating from their faces. But, others tend to ward off any stare that might lurk into them. Waiting for something to end, as if suffering. But the looks of confusion adds more burden to a striking question on their face “when will this end?”. Having to work in a big media company and with the nature of my work, I’m somewhat a ‘Houdini’ in detecting and reading people’s expressions.

A man in front of me was holding up a tabloid with a fairly bold headline that read ‘Fare Increase Approved’. His eyebrows met and combined while reading and by the looks of it, he wasn’t taking the news to a light.

A mother was combing the hair of her daughter, day-dreaming about how bright her daughter’s future will be, but leaving a hint of precariousness.

A sales boy texting someone on his phone, with subsequent deep sigh as he continue texting. Someone’s in trouble I say? or A sigh of desperation to when would something unfavorable to him end?

I have my own share of these looks, thoughts and experiences. I even fought to insanity before, as to why would something you have cared so much and trusted your whole life, end so fast and unexpectedly, and the only answer I have was — “It was bound to happen”. As I’ved search for some hints of clues (and not answers) just to put back my sanity together, I have come to know that, people set their own boundary, their limitations, their goals. They overdo and over-think things that it reaches the mainstream meaning of ‘impossible’ and then FEAR sets in.

Fear of something that hasn’t even come yet! People create an aversion of illusions.

People confine themselves in small coaches like the ones on the trains. Tend to go around, waiting for the next stop-station. Limited to only the number of stations the route have.

“Arriving at Boni Avenue Station..” a pleasing feminine voice announces my stop. It’s a stop of confinement.  An end of trammeling myself to doing what I really want to do and what should i do. I got off  and I moved on.

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Jet Setters Beneficence

“Flight xxx is Now boarding…” as it echoes through the terminal building. This is too familiar for me, that I just drown it with the playlist on my iPod. I really dislike the idea of traveling for hours on a destination I’ve been hundreds of times. I was doing a Manila-Cebu-Manila since college. I do most of it on a weekend. Having to wait in the terminal longer than the actual flight is just pathetic. It led me countless times too to rebook my plane because I’m late. But i did come on time, 15 mins before boarding that is. Anyways, I know it’s my fault, but I rarely do checkins ’cause I always travel light.

Having to travel frequently gives you a glimpse of how people do with their travels. Businessmen who always flash their mabuhay business class tickets. Families that just can’t control their kids! Couples relentlessly making the waiting lounge a lover’s lane, Balik-bayans who seems to forget how to speak their native language, and not to mention my favorite– the eye-candies.

I get a lot of ideas while traveling, it seems my brain don’t wanna stop galloping and absorbing all new and fantastic ideas that i get when i hop from one place to another. Being a jet-setter expounded my social skills. I met a lot of friends while on the terminal, on the plane in transit, and continues as I reach my final destination. This might be the best beneficence of a frequent flyer.

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